i like the tase of the word infinite

i could stay here but then i'd become someone different
i'm in between persons right now
i'm nothing
i'm absorbing characters
and nesting

i like to see things that bring people together
but never be a part of them
i never believe in them in time
i can't pretend things that important

in a beatles phase right now
and a mr. noodles phase
and reading again
i love my reading binges
and movies are my life
i'm such a shut in

i like to write about you because i like to snuggle up into my favourite stories and hear how you would never leave me
i want to know the ending goes just the way i were told it would when i was young
and i don't care that edward loves bella or romeo loves juliet, i just want to to that you will love me
you would be my mr. darcy and i would be your forever elizabeth because thats how love stories work
it isn't about them it's about us
it will always be about us
no matter how many stories and characters there are i was promised that you would love me forever

so, I think i'm getting the swine
h1n1 fun
i'm super stoked
just an update
i'm at home for reading break
may be staying longer of this sickness gets worse
so that'll be fun
considering i'm already planning on not attending thursdays classes, what's friday too
gonna have to reschedule the quiz and chiro
i'm sorry this sounds like a shopping list
being home is not that good for me
weight wise anyways
everythings so accessable
foods too close
not enough stairs
i was loosing weight back at the dorm
lets hope we continue that pattern when i return
hope this doesnt screw me up too bad
also theres the family thing
i love them to bits
but they just, sometimes, you know.
like complaining because they were asked to do one thing
or bitching about one another
just not getting along
and i can't escape
and theres things that i can't tell them or do for that matter
i can't just up and leave for a spontaneous three hour walk
i can't leave at all because my mom wnats me around all the time
she want to touch me, and i understand that she misses me
but i just... sometimes... yeah
and i can't tell them what goes on on campus
and what i did on halloween
and it's so frustrating
tomorrow's my baking and visit the highschool day
tomorrow will be fun
hopefully
for this being reading break i'm getting nothing accomplished
i'm reading a book i've read before
i'm not even looking at the other books
i'm wasting my time
but i just can't work here
home is bad habits
eating, lazing, not working
home is bad habits
and i cant break them when i'm here
i can elsewhere, but not here